I’ve never written a blog before and do not know where to start. My husband had been encouraging me for some time to write a guest blog and perhaps read his blogs. Unfortunately, I picked a time to read his blogs when I was feeling down and upset. As I read, I felt like a scab had been peeled away and instead of revealing fresh, newly healed skin; it pulled tender flesh away and left it deeper and bleeding profusely. It was at this time, that I lashed out at the man I love more than anything in the world.
On March 18th he wrote, “I'm writing to let you know that I'm still in the fight. I've been knocked down. I'm bloody. I'm tired. I'm staggering a little, but I'm back up off the mat.” I then proceeded to knock him down again, and this time he’s still trying to find his feet. I only hope that he can forgive me for my insecurities and weaknesses.
My husband and so many other righteous men are truly white knights. They are fighting a battle to the death and Satan is afraid of losing. Satan doesn’t fight fair; he uses weapons of mass destruction and small thin rapiers. Pornography is akin to chemical warfare and has the power to destroy families. My husband was on the lookout for this, but when I twisted history and used bitter words, they were like a knife straight to the heart.
I wish I was the wonderful wife that he thinks I am. My goal for this life is to be as loving, and serving, and forgiving and Christ-like as my husband already is. I wish you all the best as you continue to fight this battle; either as a warrior, or the ground support personnel. God bless you.