Trials (but just little ones)

It was a good week, on balance.  I did not have any significant problems maintaining my sobriety.  That doesn't necessarily mean that it was an easy week for me, though.

I have a tendency to glom onto things.  Like when I learned to ride the unicycle.  I stayed up until after midnight night after night, in the dark and in the cold, until I got it.

Well, I have sort of glommed onto the blogs, and made some people uncomfortable.  To those individuals I apologize.  Please forgive me!  I will scale back my comments. 

I am pretty much overly sensitive.  I always have been.  I think that has always been  a part of my addiction process.  I get unsettled very easily.  I get sad easily.  I feel rejected easily.  I take correction only with great difficulty.  That can lead me to want to numb it out with acting out. 

The good news is that now I understand that, and am better equipped to handle it! 

I've heard that it can be helpful for the lust addict to pray for person(s) that they are lusting after.  I have stopped cold turkey, so haven't really had a chance to practice that.  I hope I never do!  But, I figured if it would help in that situation, perhaps it would help to pray for anyone else that I had unsettled feelings with.  And guess what?  It's working! 

I went to my SA meeting tonight.  I was elected librarian!  So you see, I am a winner! ha ha.  I get to purchase literature for the group store.  I am feeling like the group is accepting of me.  I have written and revised my first step presentation, and expect to be able to give it in a couple of weeks.  I am enjoying the meetings, and always get a lot out of them.